since when did i became so needy?

As the title suggest: when did i became so needy??

I was never a needy person, ive been so independent that I never really ask anyone for help. Even at work. So I do not know how I became like this. Its freaking awful!!

I was so used to being alone, that I find more comfort in the silence of my own pad. Now, I cant. Since having a boyfriend, I became somewhat dependent on him. The normal things that I was ok to do alone I somehow cannot do anymore. Like watching a movie, going out just because...I am so needy its not even funny!

And now that he is not with me, I miss him terribly.. :(

Say Goodbye and Thank you to 2012

This is by far the best year end experience of my life. Personal, emotional and career wise im good.

I have so much to be thankful for :)

Lets start with the Lord. I know, im not the kind of person who would normally talk abt religion like its a fad. But i would really like to thank Him. He has provided me with so much and its overwhelming. Even if I sometimes forget to talk to Him, He is still there.

Thank you Lord.

The family, some people take their families for granted, some even hated their family. Me? I love them. All of them, even if I hate some of their guts, even if I want to strangle some of them. But you cant choose your family right?








The girlies! I am so blessed to have these girlies by my side since pre-k. Love them to bits. I think I wouldnt be able to survive my adolescent, pre-teens, teenage and 20s without them. And are bond is  just getting stronger and stronger as the years went by. Even if we are living in different countries with different timezones, meet different girlies, we still cant rid of each other. I love these girls!

Viber and Whatapp! Technology has a way of making communication for everyone easier. I love the inventors/developer of these app! Without this, I wouldnt be able to contact my friends/family abroad!

Transcom. Yes, im thankful for the work, the stress, the drama, the laughter, the politics, the friendship, the family and the team. I love working here, even if it engulfs the living daylights out of me. I can never seem to leave this company, ive started my roots here and i love the people here, from the maintenance, security, facilities and head honchos!

And last, but certainly not the least. My favorite MAN. My Carlo. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for not giving up. Thank you for finding. Thank you for consistency. Thank you for the effort. Thank you for not listening. Thank you for not leaving. Thank you for the love. I love you. More than you know.

Happy Holidays brought to you by popoy + basha

This is one of the happiest christmas of my life. What better way to spend the holidays than with the person you love. Im really grateful that he came into my life. When I thought I never needed anyone. When I actually came into terms with myself, and said yes, I am single and its better this way.

Thank you poy for sharing this holiday with me :) thank you for always being there and making me happy :) and being the silver lining to everything :)

I love you my popoy. And yes, I will go to the ends of the world with you. Even if i keep on saying no... :)

the big 2 6

My apologies lovelies for not blogging for the longest time. you know office work and such.

sooo my birthday just finished! and that was so far the happiest birthday ive had!! the people closest to me now have celebrated it with me. it would be perfect if my whole family was able to celebrate it with me... but you know... work and stuff.

I celebrated it at home, in the beach with family, friends and foooooddd!! so much food! ahahaha!! Some of the fun below!!!

that beauty shot! chos!!

the serenity shot!!

chilling at the reef cafe

sooo muccchhh happiness in one photo

oh and this is the invite made by my good friend stan! visit them at cstanlilayouts.multiply.com

the opening salvo to my birthday!

thank you for the love!!! 

challenge accepted.

i am forever grateful to the continuous blessing that God has given me.

I still feel though that i do not deserve it. i feel that i would fail. i also feel ashamed about it because i know other people are more deserving than i am. no matter how many people would say that i deserve it and its been a long time coming and its about time, i dont feel that way.

i know there are a lot of struggles that the team is facing right now, morale is low, nte's here and there, demotions for others, and i feel that this promotion is a slap to their faces.

thats the reason why i never announced it. i never told anyone, but my parents and a few close friends. i never told anyone because i dont think i deserve it. and im embarassed by it. and the fact that this was offered and i never applied/asked for this... is daunting. what if i fail? what if i create more problems than solutions?! what if im a bad choice? what if what if what if...

there is never a day that i question myself, why me? im just doing my job. why not jaypee? he already has the experience, why not just choose him. im more effective with the workload that i have right now. besides, we're one trainer short, you could've used me for that.

the 'why me' part has been answered by so many people already. and it feels nice that the people you work with trusts you and believes in you and are impressed by your work that they offer you the position.
but its still scary. it will always be scary i suppose. every venture you move into will always be the unknown.

But I know i cannot be scared forever. I have to face this, I want to be promoted, I want to move up. But not right away, not this time, i always say... but when IS the TIME?? when??

i guess, time answered my question.

I've accepted the post, and ive accepted that i cannot do anything about it. And i have to be BRAVE for this. I have to be. Or else, i'll be stuck at the safe zone.

So its CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Thank you for the people who believes in me and tells me things that makes my head swell. I will do this.