since its so early in the morning and i dont know what to say yet... i'll just share to you one of my fave video's of glee! oh and yeah, i love this vid because it encompasses every feeling i have with EH!
when you see my face EH hope it gives you hell! coz im happy as hell!! LOL!
4.24.2010
yay! me
wheew! i should never underestimate myself. when i say IM DONE. IM REALLY DONE! gotta love this ticking heart of mine. if it tells my brain to stop because its tired of loving a certain someone, it would really stop. i love you ♥ dont ever leave me!! and the friends also help. i have a massive friendship circle that is totally reliable during my times of need. i love you all. you never fail me.
and i guess it also helps me being a huge biatch! strong willed and powerful. never say die. now THAT is what a bitch is. not the nasty, flirt, hoochie mama that everyone thinks of.
gotta love this.
so you! EH, get over yourself! you're not the greatest catch in the ocean. and im not gonna wait for you, if you cant stand by your love for me then goodbye brotha! i dont need someone who lacks the backbone to stand up to me and to the world and say you love me. its not my loss, its yours. so keep your heart i dont need it. and i dont think i'll ever want it. ever. again. if you cant be a MAN, then i guess, goodbye. lets just be friends then. just dont get hooked on me again.
4.23.2010
sick to the blood
what i hate about myself is that i rarely get sick... and when i do... expect HELL!! i hate it. sobra! parang wala ng bukas pag nagkasakit ako... like now, though im feeling much better i cant move that much lest i be dead and my face is will be covered in muck. oK, that was exaggerating but the point is, i'd rather be sick a lot of time and still feel enormously ok than be sick once every 3 years and feel like a useless vegetable in near catastrophic proportions. (forgive my grammar or my spelling, im still nauseous but i refuse to give up blogging)
hell, im just saying that because i can never feel the other. a typical human being. never satisfied of what we have.
oh yeah, incase you're wondering what my case is... im anemic with mild dehydration. anemic - yeah, Anemia, one of the more common blood disorders, occurs when the level of healthy red blood cells (RBCs) in the body becomes too low. This can lead to health problems because RBCs contain hemoglobin, which carries oxygen to the body's tissues. Anemia can cause a variety of complications, including fatigue and stress on bodily organs. (courtesy of kidshealth.org)
Signs and Symptoms
If your child has anemia, the first symptoms might be mild skin paleness and decreased pinkness of the lips and nailbeds. These changes may happen gradually, though, so they can be difficult to notice. Other common signs include:
* irritability
* fatigue
* dizziness, lightheadedness, and a rapid heartbeat
If the anemia is caused by excessive destruction of RBCs, symptoms also may include jaundice, a yellowing of the whites of the eyes, an enlarged spleen, and dark tea-colored urine. (courtesy of kidshealth.org)
all in BOLD are my symptoms.
it's actually my fault really. i've been feeling a lot worse on Monday, but heeeelllll noo... i gotta go to work! i gotta finish my induction! went to work, drank 3 bonamine, vomit 2 and off i go! Tuesday can't even stand, drank water, vomitted water, took a long long long bath to calm my nerves, drank 3 medicine, and off i go. feeling light headed on the way to work so i ate some bbq i think and sprite. then towards the end of my shift feeling nauseous already... but no! being the trooper that i was, even invited some friends to stay and eat (because i really thought that im just hungry that's why dizzy)... while eating i feel the lumps of food not going down my throat and actually backing up so drank more and more.. at home, i took a long bath, dried my hair and woke up woozy. i even replied to some text, but i can only manage to use one eye, coz if i use both i take the risk of vomitting everything. WEDNESDAY i came to the point of i dont have anything in my stomach anymore that i vomitted air. and acid. im close to crying since i live independently i dont have anyone to help me. i cant move, i cant eat, i cant talk , i cant even change my position in bed!! and the worst part, its soooo hot! i cant drink water, im sweating all over the place and im dehydrated.
i finally had the urge to call my mom and to pick me up and get me to a hospital, because i just tasted blood on my puke. and it aint pretty. trust me. i think my stomach told me "you're such a trooper kid, but sometimes being a baby is much better... if you feel you're as tough as nails, then imma give you something to send you back from whatever part of the universe you think you belong". and that my friends is how i ended up here.
hell, im just saying that because i can never feel the other. a typical human being. never satisfied of what we have.
oh yeah, incase you're wondering what my case is... im anemic with mild dehydration. anemic - yeah, Anemia, one of the more common blood disorders, occurs when the level of healthy red blood cells (RBCs) in the body becomes too low. This can lead to health problems because RBCs contain hemoglobin, which carries oxygen to the body's tissues. Anemia can cause a variety of complications, including fatigue and stress on bodily organs. (courtesy of kidshealth.org)
Signs and Symptoms
If your child has anemia, the first symptoms might be mild skin paleness and decreased pinkness of the lips and nailbeds. These changes may happen gradually, though, so they can be difficult to notice. Other common signs include:
* irritability
* fatigue
* dizziness, lightheadedness, and a rapid heartbeat
If the anemia is caused by excessive destruction of RBCs, symptoms also may include jaundice, a yellowing of the whites of the eyes, an enlarged spleen, and dark tea-colored urine. (courtesy of kidshealth.org)
all in BOLD are my symptoms.
it's actually my fault really. i've been feeling a lot worse on Monday, but heeeelllll noo... i gotta go to work! i gotta finish my induction! went to work, drank 3 bonamine, vomit 2 and off i go! Tuesday can't even stand, drank water, vomitted water, took a long long long bath to calm my nerves, drank 3 medicine, and off i go. feeling light headed on the way to work so i ate some bbq i think and sprite. then towards the end of my shift feeling nauseous already... but no! being the trooper that i was, even invited some friends to stay and eat (because i really thought that im just hungry that's why dizzy)... while eating i feel the lumps of food not going down my throat and actually backing up so drank more and more.. at home, i took a long bath, dried my hair and woke up woozy. i even replied to some text, but i can only manage to use one eye, coz if i use both i take the risk of vomitting everything. WEDNESDAY i came to the point of i dont have anything in my stomach anymore that i vomitted air. and acid. im close to crying since i live independently i dont have anyone to help me. i cant move, i cant eat, i cant talk , i cant even change my position in bed!! and the worst part, its soooo hot! i cant drink water, im sweating all over the place and im dehydrated.
i finally had the urge to call my mom and to pick me up and get me to a hospital, because i just tasted blood on my puke. and it aint pretty. trust me. i think my stomach told me "you're such a trooper kid, but sometimes being a baby is much better... if you feel you're as tough as nails, then imma give you something to send you back from whatever part of the universe you think you belong". and that my friends is how i ended up here.
4.17.2010
karma's a bitch and so am i
karma's a bitch.
well, karma is an uber bitch! my friday started out well enough, it was after all my favorite day of the whole entire week! because its cheesy friday! anyways, the day started pretty normal (i already said that) training as usual and my annoying mood swing did not rear its ugly head once! yay for me! we went to mass as per my boss, we should, though im really melting there, the upside to that is! we ate pizza!! GLORIOUS PIZZA!! im really trying to avoid that damn calories all those weeks of eating crackers and water and yakult was so over with 4 small slices of pizza! LOL! well more diet to go! anyways... so my work day is so over and done with. HOW EVER! i just had to say goodbye to EH. because i miss him and its a nice goodbye forever touch. im actually avoiding the bastard till he make his move. he's just too damn stubborn and torpe. or am i just hoping for nothing??? idk.
so we went to Bancheto, the every friday, food smorgasborg in ortigas, where french cuisine meets japanese craves, where filipino flare is mixed with american grits, you get the idea. and as the usual, i ordered my bancheto meal for a lifetime, the pesto with baked chicken. for 100php its sooo gooood, its soooo worth it! and my friends tried it as well and it was a hit! we actually ordered everything there. soo after we munched (demure) on our meals we talked about a lot of stuff... honestly M gossiped, bitched and over all humiliated the 3 stooges. and we just laughed our assess off. technically we said some things too, but no where near the angst of M. soooo laugh and luagh and now its time to leave, im going back to gapo (here)...
soo on the way:
rode a freaking taxi who charge like hell is freezing over if he doesnt get a mark up to 80!!
rode the wrong bus!
eded up sitting in the conductor's chair which is so hard and uncomfortable it gave me a butt ache!
the tires on the bus went splat! so we got stuck somewhere in pampanga just so we can change tires
never got a chance to sleep because every time the driver switched lanes im gonna fall off!! so sleepy pa naman!
that was so karma! what a loser day to start sturday!
well, karma is an uber bitch! my friday started out well enough, it was after all my favorite day of the whole entire week! because its cheesy friday! anyways, the day started pretty normal (i already said that) training as usual and my annoying mood swing did not rear its ugly head once! yay for me! we went to mass as per my boss, we should, though im really melting there, the upside to that is! we ate pizza!! GLORIOUS PIZZA!! im really trying to avoid that damn calories all those weeks of eating crackers and water and yakult was so over with 4 small slices of pizza! LOL! well more diet to go! anyways... so my work day is so over and done with. HOW EVER! i just had to say goodbye to EH. because i miss him and its a nice goodbye forever touch. im actually avoiding the bastard till he make his move. he's just too damn stubborn and torpe. or am i just hoping for nothing??? idk.
so we went to Bancheto, the every friday, food smorgasborg in ortigas, where french cuisine meets japanese craves, where filipino flare is mixed with american grits, you get the idea. and as the usual, i ordered my bancheto meal for a lifetime, the pesto with baked chicken. for 100php its sooo gooood, its soooo worth it! and my friends tried it as well and it was a hit! we actually ordered everything there. soo after we munched (demure) on our meals we talked about a lot of stuff... honestly M gossiped, bitched and over all humiliated the 3 stooges. and we just laughed our assess off. technically we said some things too, but no where near the angst of M. soooo laugh and luagh and now its time to leave, im going back to gapo (here)...
soo on the way:
rode a freaking taxi who charge like hell is freezing over if he doesnt get a mark up to 80!!
rode the wrong bus!
eded up sitting in the conductor's chair which is so hard and uncomfortable it gave me a butt ache!
the tires on the bus went splat! so we got stuck somewhere in pampanga just so we can change tires
never got a chance to sleep because every time the driver switched lanes im gonna fall off!! so sleepy pa naman!
that was so karma! what a loser day to start sturday!
4.12.2010
nahulog
ang aga ko nanaman nagising. at bored na ko kagad. buti na lang may facebuko.com it never fails to start my day! case in point: 
maraming golden thoughts sa website na to! lalo naman na ang mga cheesy lines! ako yata ang self-proclaimed reyna ng cheesy lines! ahahaha!
in a more serious matter, to you friend: i'll support you no matter what. you can make it. i know you feel like your in deep shit, but you dont have to be in it alone. we can share it. we already shared more than that friend... dont worry i wont go. i'll stick by you until you get through..
maraming golden thoughts sa website na to! lalo naman na ang mga cheesy lines! ako yata ang self-proclaimed reyna ng cheesy lines! ahahaha!
in a more serious matter, to you friend: i'll support you no matter what. you can make it. i know you feel like your in deep shit, but you dont have to be in it alone. we can share it. we already shared more than that friend... dont worry i wont go. i'll stick by you until you get through..
4.11.2010
set me free why dont you baby!
well sometimes i just want to smash you in the face and not look at you ever again! i will be missing in your life for 1 week. let's see what happens!
4.04.2010
jump shots!
i just love jumping shots and for the lack of better things to share (and also im so happy everything is fine) here are my jump shots!
4.03.2010
an open letter
alam mo, sobrang clueless ko talaga sa mga nangyayari. wala talaga. ikaw na nga eh! ikaw na! kumikibo pa ba ako? may sinasabi pa ba ako? wala na diba? ayoko na. ang aga mo kong pinagod. madali naman akong kausap eh. sobrang dali. kung ayaw. edi wag.
paalam.
it was very nice knowing you.
being sick is crap
1 week na akong may sakit. and its crap. i'm slowly loosing my voice (actually its hoarse), can't breathe on one of my nostril, my throat is irritated and my eyes are a bit swollen. all symptoms of an impending doom! i am sniffing and blowing like a sailor on met! ahahahaha!
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