you got you.

Despite how many quiz ive answered, how many birthday's i non-celebrate, despite how many years i let pass me by, i am, still forever will be a 12 year old kid by heart. let me digress -- i did not conduct any scientific study or enlist the help of a great psychoanalyst/psychologist. i dont need to. who else know YOu but YOU YOURSELF. no other people need to delve into my whole being but me.

i found out and admitted it to my self last night, that i am a twelve tear old, despite my appearance and surely my real age. i remember when i was twelve, cartoons/animes were the center of my life. junkfood was my drugs, and i totally shut off people when im at home. and i dont need/want a cp when i was 12. all i need is the tv. shiny happy people disgust me, but im certainly no emo-punk-goth. im normal, i just dont like all that giddiness. the only food i ate was laced with chilis. any chilis. and i refuse to yet anything else. i get what i want and i never have to ask twice. i get to stay in my room withoput anyone bothering me, when i want someone out, he/she will be out.

so, i turned off my phone, grabbed my snacks and watched dvd's of (which i havent finished yet bytheway). i locked the door to my room, to prevent those who tried to come in, put the ac in full blast and did not see the sun for 3 straight days. i dont ever go out. no im not a vampire(though i dont like garlic), i just dont like it when im all sweaty.

the point is, at my age, i feel like im still a kid. a KID. i couldnt careless of what the world thinks, or what the outside would be like, all i cared about is me, whether i have enough time to finish all my dvd's whether i'll ran out of snacks or not...

for once i never felt like an adult. i didnt worry about my job, reports, bosses, money, people, rent, utilities. for once i am free of that burden. for once i shut that part of my world and focused on me. JUST ME. and you know what, no matter how serious the nxt day would be for me, im revitalize. im new, im fresh. because i focused on me. my center was me. i guess this is what it feels like if you found your center during yoga.

you got you.

repulsed - happy

I was and still am repulsed at the video i just saw. its awful! im sure its is still a form of cannibalism and it is wretched! my gawd! i thought in this day and age, we know better, i know half of the world is starving but not to the point that you would human beings! In case you're wondering what i saw... i just saw a video of people in CHINA, eating humans brains and fetuses. you know what? brains i can understand but fetuses?!! BABIES?! aborted, miscarried it doesnt make a difference! you dont eat a full grown fetus! with hair on its head, with a face and arms and legs! juice ko! really i am mortified! i cant find the adjective that would suffice on what i am feeling right now. it felt so in human. and one guy was even sucking the vertebrae of the baby! gawd that was hard to look at! LIKE DUDE THAT IS NOT A COW! i cant believe it. and the people on the video they're civilised, cultured people. i understand strange delicacies or whatnot but i dont think humans are delicacies! you are awful awful people! wtahc the videos if you want, you can easily find it in youtube, if you have a week stomach, i suggest you skip this one out.

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i am so happy for jovit baldivino! he truly deserve his title! he is wonderfully talented! and extraordinarily humble. remained decent and honorable despite many intrigues hounding him! i wish for you to have a wonderful life! flourishing career and great great time!

i seriously cried when i first heard this is kid sing! i mean seriously. he is a powerful force of nature! im one of your biggest fan!

here are his videos:

sings carrie - semi finals



sings faithfully - auditions



THIS KID WILL GO PLACES! THIS KID MAKES ME PROUD TO BE A FILIPINO! GO JOVIT!

Rules to live by if you want to survive in the workplace:

Rules to live by if you want to survive in the workplace:

1. Never talk about the people in your workplace to anyone outside the comforts of your own home. ESPECIALLY when your dissing them. You never know, the person next to you might be a friend of his/her. Or worst, its the person you're talking about.

2. Resist office politics as much as you can, if you are somehow caught in their web, be civil and cordial, but dont ever be tangled in their system.

3. SMILE. when your mad, when your sad, when your glad, when your bored. SMILING has done wonders to everyone.

4. Do not eat coconut juice, pie, candy etc. and banana on the same day. trust me.

5. Never ever talk about someone when your taking a leak/dump in a public CR, you never know who you're gonna see when you open the door.

6. Know the RIGHT people that can help you, for example in IT, Payroll, Health department. That doesn't mean you have to kiss-ass, it just means that knowing the right people helps in making your life easier.

7. EAT BEFORE YOU GO TO WORK. If you're work gives you a lot of stress, eat even if its just a granola bar or crackers, its keeps you focus and full at least until the first break comes along.

8. for the ladies, BRING AN EXTRA PAIR OF FLIP FLOPS, BAND AIDS, SOCKS. Wearing fierce shoes is must to complete your outfit, but sometimes you have to give your feet some air to breathe and relax, remember we don't want to trip in the middle of the hallway for fashion's sake.

9. Sometimes its OK to say NO.

10. Do not talk about work during your gimmicks with your office mates. It only adds stress to your day and lessens the happy moments in you night outs.

11. Have a little crush at work. Aside from the payday having a crush makes you perform better and eager to come to work. It also helps if your trying to lose weight, as you would be conscious on how good you look.

12. Freshen up every once in a while. You work is killing you but sometimes a spritz of your favorite cologne or a quick hilamos, recharges you.

13. Alternate coffee and tea. They said that coffee gives you that kick to start your day, but some of the ingredients in coffee makes your nerves a total wreck, so alternate with a healthy dose of green tea or lemon tea, it gives you the same caffeine with less backlash effect.

14. Stop and smell the roses. Stop for a few minutes and just breathe. its relaxes you and de-stresses quickly.