neuschwanstein

11.09.2011

rumour blogging

i totally forgot how fun and therapeutic blogging is... i think this is the reason why the stress is getting on to me, i dont have an outlet where i can just pour my heart and soul into without the fear of being judged. so now. since i have pinkberry (laptop) with me, i will try, as best that i can to blog.

so blogging starts now...

so the story goes of the boy meets girl and the girl meets boy.

i never really want to blog about my personal life anymore because i had a "staker-scare" moment, but this call for a a blog moment. because if i will not let this loose, i will die. (mentally)

so this started with rumours. the rumour that i have a bf in the office spread like wildfire. at first it annoyed the hell outta me. i mean, wtf?? dont you guys have better things to do than to gossip about me?? and why is my lovelife all of the sudden the talk of the town? and why all of sudden everybody started caring about it??

precisely the point of me not wanting an OFFICE ROMANCE.

so for the past weeks... every one bugged me about whether i or not i have a relationship with M. scratch that a romantic relationship with M. how bad is the bugging you ask? well imagine me, walking towards my station at the start of my shift and everyone that passed by my station asked: kayo na ba ni M?

WTF. that happened for atleast a solid 2 weeks straight.

then it died down because whenever i get asked of the question, i always ALWAYS answer: ASK HIM. same goes for him.

now comes the good part... (the brit in me is talking)

it started with me putting on HEARTBREAK WARFARE as my status in BBM. (i swear to gawd sometimes BBM is eevil) then M followed suit. i didnt know that he did so i got confused/surprised when he BBMed me saying that people were texting him asking if he had an LQ or does he have a gf or if we fought. THE FUCK?!! (he is not in the office btw hes out sick with sore eyes)

i always had that status on BBM if not this icon (-__-).

sooo moving along, since some of my "kids" are also my BB, buddies they were asking if we broke up. greaaaaattttt. then everyone started asking me too if we broke up, if we have LQ or not.

then we talked about it and said that since they want a show, lets give them a goddamn show.

he even put on fb that heartbreak warfare is a song by john mayer and that we both liked it. and we are not fighting. we even made a joke about it. the next i know. everyone's taking sides already.

mostly they're for me, saying that I deserve better, he's not a good match for me, he's a playboy, he's this and that and this and that.

someone even came up to me and said that he/she/it never really see us lasting longer than 2 months, because he's not a good catch. he'll just break my heart and leave me... blah blah blah

even the managers and people that i dont normally associate with GOSSIPING and CARING about me, even give their 2 cents. i wont go into details about what they are saying about him, me, or us as it is not important. (and i dont wanna dwell on the negative)

and with all this currently in loop in my life right now... i am OVERWHELMED + STRESSED at the same time.

i am OVERWHELMED because i never knew that they all love me that much. i never thought that i was really their baby in the office. they all feel for me. and they all said the same thing, one more fuck up from him and he'll be dead. ahahaha! i never thought that they care for me that much and they dont want to see me get hurt. seriously, i LOVE you guys to bits, even when sometimes your making my life miserable.

IM STRESSED because, this wont die down! and im not expecting this to die down, because he has yet to return to work and i am pretty suuurrre that when he comes back, its gonna be bigger, bolder and nastier than ever.

for a ruse, this sure is a fucked up outcome. i even said to the people that its not his fault. that im the one to blame. that i was the cause of all the shits that's been happening to us just so they would stop all of their threats against him.

oh my. FML. sorry M. dont worry, as i told you on BBM if i have a sudden bout of hysteria ill just stop talking to you to avoid starting a warpath against you. :) i will do that, whether you like it or not.

sooooo... yes i finally let it all out. i hope i can breathe a little better...

4.29.2011

skin care prducts

these are just some of the products i use, i apologise if i didnt indicate all of them, its because most of the products that i use is in another closet in another city.

skin care

When I was younger, I always hear all the women in my family saying my Lola has the most beautiful skin ever. They say even when she was bed ridden, she never forgot her skin ritual. And that I was the lucky one, to inherit her great skin. I guess they were right, why?

Because most of the people I meet would always compliment me because of my skin. When I was younger, i used to get irritated with people pinching my cheeks or touching my face because they say I have great skin. They use to brush my face with their hands and ask my mom if i wash my face with anything.

Though the face harassment happened a lot, im so happy that my face/skin didnt get brutalised. LOL. Growing older, I never had a problem with zits, when puberty hit me. I never worried about oily face, scars, discoloration, pores, etc. My skin as they say is perfect. And I owe all of it to my genes.

Dont get me wrong, im not saying that great skin can only be achieved by having some great genes. Well, let me digress, great skin, yes came from genes and yes, it can also be made possible without the help of "products".

Now that I am older, i dont just rely on my genes, i use products that helps me maintain my skin. So what products do I sue, lets start from the face down.

Daily Regimen Face:

1. To wash my face, I alternate using a Dove Cream Bar Extra Sensitive (as i have the most sensitive skin evaar) and Ponds Facial Scrub. These products are sensitive enough to be used daily.

2. To remove gunk, dirt and makeup, I use ponds cold cream daily and l'oreal make up remover. I love the cold cream as it instantly does the job and the loreal takes care of those, smudge proof and waterproof make up thats hard to remove.

3. To exfoliate, I use the St Ives Apricot scrub. Hands down the best, so i dont use any other product. I exfoliate 4x a week, but it depends on each activity. This is even formulated to be used everyday, depending on the skin you have, I have sensitive skin and I dont scrubbing my face too often.

4. To moisturize during the day, i put on Myra vitamin E moisturizer sunscreen with spf 15. This protects my skin from the sun and it keeps it soft and supple. For night, I smear a think layer of Vaseline (petroleum jelly cream or just plain petroleum jelly) on my face and neck area, and when i wake up, i wash it with water and i feel fresh, plus you can instantly feel the changes on your face.

5. Last but definitely not the least, the best product i use are, water and vitamin E. Yes, I drink gallons and gallons of water to keep me hydrated and vitamin E to help me keep my skin and the rest of my body healthy.

4.16.2011

a month of neglect

i know, im a neglect. ive neglected this blog for a month. ive been too busy and getting caught up with work that i barely have time for blogging. AAAANNNNDDD, im feeling that i should a lot of my time with REAL people instead of REEl people. LOLS. anyways, what happened to me this past month? gonna share it with pictures...