phat

i remember the time that i blogged about being fat and being told by alot of people, some i dont even know that 'i would be beautiful, if i werent fat', and remembered feeling so disgusted and so angry at how shallow these people were, for saying those things to me, that i resorted to laugh so hard because i pitied them for being so indiscreet about how they feel towards me.
and whenever i remember that time, i just feel so frustrated, because alot of people still feel that beauty is always associated with being skinny. that being accepted in this day and age for being fat? is as far long as the the first amphibian evolved into a land animal.
no matter how we try, or preach or propagate positive ads about being fat, chubby or horizontally challenge, people still cannot find it in their hearts to look deeper into the person before saying things to them.
and i am slowly getting tired of telling people to "beuaty is only skin deep."
if i ever get another "compliment" like that again, i'll just shot back and say "put a sock in it, assface!"

being skinny is not being perfect ir pretty, being skinny is being skinny.

a cacophony of sorts

a cacophony... wala lang... ang talino nung dating ng title eh. kakaaliw. isa pa namimiss ko na ang mga high faluting words na yan na sa college papers ko lang nagagamit.isa pa if i talk to someone using english words such as the one i used in my title, i fear that i would cause a sudden gush of blood from the nostrils of the person i am speaking with. ha! tama na.

in other news, tomorrow will be the WORLD EARTH DAY. we will have an hour of power interruption GLOBALLY, to raise awareness about the massive deterioration of our planet and the carelessness of human beings. bout time dangnamit! this not some heroes-shit about save the cheerleader save the world bull! this is serious business! we really need to save the world. we dont have anywhere else to go if this planet suddenly goes kaboom! we need to reuse, reduce and dangnamit recycle! RECYCLE! so if you ever see Paris Hilton going up and about in LA or wherever part of the world she's in, drive her to the nearest recycling plant, we should really recycle plastic more often. maybe we could make out something more productive to society than lolling around flashing everyone with your VV.. haha!! just kidding! i love paris hilton! she makes my day so... whats the word im looking for??? uhm.... entertaining!

in other unrelated paragraph, i just remembered something about food. we always associate food with memory right? or atleast in my case. because we travelled all the way to san fernando, pampanga earlier to buy some sweets and uraro and taba ng alimango and pastillas etc. for pasalubong for our kamag - anak in the states. so, my sister who loves pastillas and anything creamy ate in one sitting like 5 packets of pastillas. and i just sat there beside her staring as she gobbles up piece by piece like she just discovered the wonderful world of disneyland. and out of the blue i remembered way back 1999 or 2000 i think, we were sitting on the dining room, across from each other and i was just looking at her, concocting her own version of yema. she did it in a theatrical way like i was an audience and she's a chef.
when she finished, she offered some to me, and to the rest of the clan but no one dared to take a bite. she wasnt disappointed or anything, but she was quite happy that no one liked it but her... (greedy monster! ehehe) so for the last 24 hours she ate her yema every minute. she finished it! the whole friggin' bowl! if you've been to our house you'd know which bowl im talking about... anyway yeah she finished it. the next day... she had a bad case of the numbah 2! she got LBM from eating too much! haha! she was so smug about making her own yema and finishing it all!! the whole house was laughing so hard! hahahaha!!! i still laugh whenever i remember that. hay.

new age mantra

i refuse to wallow in pain
i refuse to suffer because of him
he is NOT worth it
i am pretty and smart and talented
i DESERVE better
so much better!

for the 7 month/year itch/curse.

i miss the beach...

this is how you complement a lady

"my wife taught me how to be a man,
and a lot of other things i thought i knew,
i was about 68% of a man, when my wife came,
she taught me how to be a 100% man... i love her"

- Tom Hanks on the Oprah Show

this is the life

there is nothing like early morning relaxation in a hammock, with the breeze cradling you.

eye candies, tattoos and a lot more

i refuse to wallow in pain and misery. and i refuse to let other people know about what happened/happening to me. i refuse. so instead im gonna showcase here the things that are running in my head. first of, my crushes, yes plural, i have lots, and im not gonna hold back... im gonna show you people my crushes since i can remember! hahaha!! brace your self!

forever crush:
cmon! who doesnt LOVE ♥♥ the hotness that is JOHNNY DEPP! whether he's rugged, dirty, perv, cleancut, i love him!! I ♥♥♥♥♥ him!







pretty boy crush:
hay... jun matsumoto. mas maganda sya sakin!!! waaaaaaaahhhhh!!! whatever. i still ♥ him.









bad boy crush:
danny messer! csi ny hottie!










as of now crush:
who is not inlove with this guy right now? no one. hay... i want a makulet na lovelife. hahahaha!!!






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tattoo. i've been contemplating on getting a tattoo of a cherry blossom on my arm, yes, my whole right arm. it would consist a branches and cherry blossoms, with initials of my relatives and friends. like a memorial tattoo for those who passed away. every time a person close to my heart dies, i would inked a cherry blossom on my arm in his/her memory. for now, im gonna put that dream on hold, when i told my parents about it, this is their exact reply "sige, pa-tattoo ka, pag dating mo dito, nakahanda na yung kutsilyo at tatalupan kita..." diba???! supportive parents!

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slum booking-buking!

THE LETTER A
Are you available?: yes. finally.
What is your age?: 20
What annoys you?: waiting, sweat, hot sun

THE LETTER B
Do you live in a big house?: Nah.
When is your birthday?: 08.31.1986
Who is your best friend?: paula

THE LETTER C
What's your favorite candy?: reese's peanut buttercups. meiji black choco
Who's your crush?: just look up.
When was the last time you cried?: i have yet to cry.

THE LETTER D
Do you daydream?: uh... yeah!
What's your favorite kind of dog?: i want a blue coated chow-chow and a collie
What day of the week is it?: thursday

THE LETTER E
How do you like your eggs?: overturned
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: yes
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: stare blankly into space

THE LETTER F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: yes
Do you use fly swatters?: not anymore

THE LETTER G
Do you chew gum?: yes
Are you a giver or a taker?: giver and taker
Do you like gummy candies?: yes

THE LETTER H
How are you?: never better
What color is your hair?: Brown

THE LETTER I
What's your favorite ice cream?: i ♥ chocochipcookies ice cream
Have you ever ice skated?: yes

THE LETTER J
What's your favorite jelly?: blueberry
Do you wear jewelry? nope

THE LETTER K
Who do you want to kill?: a lot of people
Do you want kids?: im sticking with 6

THE LETTER L
Are you laid back?: laid-back is an understatement
Do you lie?: yes

THE LETTER M
What's your favorite movie?: right now its ACROSS THE UNIVERSE
Do you like mangoes?: yeah all types!

THE LETTER N
Do you have a nickname?: yes, julai, jules, dimple, pappon, poleng
Whats your favorite number?: 6
Do you prefer night over day?: night

THE LETTER O
What's your one wish?: Nothing bad happens to my family.
Are you an only child?: nah

THE LETTER P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: something bads gonna happen after being so happy
What personality trait you look for in people?: honesty and frankness...

THE LETTER Q
What's your favorite quote?: Nobody is perfect but parts of me are excellent

THE LETTER R
Do you think you're always right?: No

THE LETTER S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: rain

THE LETTER T
What time is it?: 1:06 am
What time did you wake up?: past 10
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: grade 6, GSP camping trip

THE LETTER U
Are you wearing underwear?: Of course!

THE LETTER V
What's the worst veggie: AMPALAYA!!! yuck!
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Siargao, palawan, aspen, ottawa

THE LETTER W
What's your worst habit?: staring blankly into space
Where do you live?: sa lugar na bawal ang tamad! OLONGAPO CITY!
What's your worst fear?: failure

THE LETTER X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: yup
Have you seen the x-games?: no
Do you own a xylophone?: when i was a kid, was never good at it

THE LETTER Y
Do you like the color yellow?: opkors!
What's one thing you yearn for?: go back in time

THE LETTER Z
What's your zodiac sign?: virgo
Do you believe in the zodiac?: nah! i had a bad case of zodiac diarrhea!
Favorite zoo animal?: tigers! ROAR!

wtf.

after holy week i'll be a busy bee again. im finally going to file/check/process my papers, that i've been putting off for quite some time now. i dont know what will happen to me, or how much money i need to process that damn papers. if i listened to my parents earlier, they would've shouldered the expenses for me. now im on my own. blech. where am i gonna go? i dont know. canada? im not sure. sanfo? what am i gonna do there? vegas?? and be with tita? hardly. hay... im not sure.

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there are times im regretting the fact that i quit my job, but whenever i think of the reason why i quit, the only reason that i can think of, is the people i left behind. that's it. i would've been miserable and pitying myself till now if i stayed. so i guess im good. the lack of money in my pocket right now, doesnt even bother me one bit. so i guess im still good.

mobil1... i dont know what to say. for someone whose very talkative, im lost for words.

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EMBASSY EMBASSY EMBASSY!!! THE GUCCI GANG!!! wtf? ahahaha!!

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and to pacman!! congrats!!! one hell of a fight!! i watched it live!!! though i still think marquez should win! but what the heck?! what do i know!

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up to now, i still cannot think of anything to say to my friends.
it's really hard to say goodbye.

my goodbye - part 1.

it took me a week to finally decide to quit my job. i weigh it down meticulously. like any normal decision making. and from what i point out, being in love with the people you are working with, is really not enough reason for me to stay. i do love them dearly but they are not going to make my performance better or my whole working state bearable.

if im not happy, im not going to be able to enjoy working, not being able to give my 110% to my job is unfair. for me, the company, and especially the people im serving.

i have come to love my job, loathe it, and love it again. but this time around, even if i love it, i must step back and let it go. i know it has given me a ton of opportunities, chest overflowing with wonderful memories, and a chockful of friends whom i considered as family (spending time with them more than spending time with my blood family) and of course how can i forget a truckload of goodies. i know that everything will change. i know that a lot of people will be dissapointed with me and my decision, (for some have tried to dissuade me from quitting) but i have set my mind. i have decided.

im making this move not just for myself, but for my family. my health, my physical and mental state.

i will never forget the people, the experience, the language, even the place.

all of you will be forever etched here ..... in my heart. whether you made my life miserable you are here. i love you guys... TAE.

to lpeteers:
2 weeks lasted for months.
though only a handful of us stayed in etelecare, we never forgot where and how we really started. giddy and nervous fresh grads and of course comebacking mothers for work looking stupidly beyond the batcave oggling the makati based agents, chatting and dreaming that one day, we'll proudly walk along the hallways of etelecare flashing a big grin on new applicants while wearing the 'then' coveted etel id. what losers we were back then. hahaha!! to you guys, mommy susan, cindy, juicy, pao, mike, tin, leonard, wowie and regie... im proud of all of you for continuing the battle. stay strong. dont go on awol. im just a text away. and before i forget, precious, nen and of course owie. thank you my schwa goddesses of language! hahaha!

to techpets!:
again another friggin' 2 weeks! though some of the time we're bewildered and confuse often caught saying... "ano ba tong pinasok naten?"
meeting new people, though we started out as ignorants shoved with memory modules and mobos, everyday was a happy day. to my ne found friends on techpet, jay, maja, remy, star, chris, aster, rico, george, koray, and anna. even though we started out badly, we ended up great. WE ROCK! CONQUER THE TECHWORLD WITH HIGH REGARD FOR YOURSELVES! basta ang inuman sa kalsada ituloy yan. nga pala! hi kay trainer allan!

to clientspec-tators/wave 7/tuesday group:
ito ang barkada. disclaimer muna, kaya tagalog na to kasi baka makantyawan pa ako ng mga lokong to. masaya ako nakasama ko kayo. kahit pahirap kayo sa buhay ko. mga tangina kayo! mamimiss ko kayo! lalo na ung mga bugok kong kainuman at kakulitan. masaya at malungkot na karanasan nandito na. pero di ko ipagpapalit yon. mga magdamagang inuman, mga murahang kwentuhan, mga lasing na usapan, kainang umuusok. walang patid na asaran. tumibay talaga sikmura ko sa inyo. hanggang ngayon pinagmamalaki ko kayo. mahal ko kayo. galit ako sa inyo. mamimiss ko kayo.
ac, ging, lanchie, sheva, ryan, aina, kaye, tonee, momi liezl, dadee rolly, anne, ruby,lajoel, mel, rio, caloi... tangina ayusin nio buhay nio ha! wag na wag kong mababalitaan na nagbabagong buhay na kayo at di na kayo umiinom at humihithit! taena! oy dennis! wala lang. jeff at rj! galing nio sa quickbooks!

to team archer!
what can i say! the best non bonded/bonded team ever! wahahha! issue galore and kona! awol and buddy system! cake!!! and all those 6 hour long calls, r.a. and a lot of OT's. first team ever . kahit na lagi tayong may struggle sa stats natin okey lang. basta masaya tayo. kay boss faith... na para sakin magalit na lahat! wala akong pake! ang PINAKAMAGANDANG TL sa INTUIT sa ETEL pala! boss! mamimiss kita! seryosong makulit ka kasi! kay ian, na pinaiyak si anna at pinaiyak ng lahat, lalo na ng pinakaba ka namin sa awol issue. IKAW PA RIN ANG THE BEST SME ng INTUIT-CORE! idol! kay quin, dong, diane, ron, roms, ana, kayong wave 6 ha! wala lang. saya nio... kahit na malabo tayo sa una, masaya naman tayong nagtapos.

to team vhin:
eto ang pinaka tragic sa lahat! magbenta daw ba! sori tl ha, from the top naging bottom team ka sa reg queue, pero swerte mo! nakilala mo kami! wahahaha! kahit na half ng shift ko naka coaching ako! pero dahil sayo tl, napunta ako sa pinaka-na-the-best-pa! ng LOB sa intuit, ang cs. kung di dahil sayo di ako mapupunta dun. tsaka kay jec, kahit lagi kang tulog pag lunch time! wahahaha!! tinutulong mo kami!
kay nicky, marthee, joy at sherwin, dyan lang kayo... do what you guys do best!

teka san na ba? ah sa the best team ever. at best LOB ever.

wag muna. di muna ako magmemessage senyo. baka maiyak kayo.

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