look at what we've become

i've been chatting with my college buddies trhu facebook. been rekindling some college barkada chismis and antics as well. medyo nawala kasi ako sa sirkulasyon. actually laging nangyayari un sakin. focus ko kasi work eh.

so via facebook ive been hearing that not everyone turned up to be a big shot journalist like everyone dreamed of. dun ko rin narealise na napaka idealic naman ng college for us, especially for me. college is supposed to teach me the rounds of the dog eat dog world but hell!!! wala rin pala. its still a comfort zone.

some of them, who i believe will turn out to be one hell of a journalist are now in cc. just like me. yung iba naman, eventhough they're living the journalistic dream wants to be in cc.

for example my friend lee. i would kill to get a chance to apply in abs, he's already in that zone. he just need to prove himself. and he's one good writer too.
kaya lang he's thinking of applying in a cc. kasi nga ang baba ng pay.

mjeff. one hell of a writer. i can totally see her writing for the literary section of PDI. then she's teaching korean kids to speak english.

doing what you love doesnt always equate in making you happy.

ive been contemplating about how would i feel when i pursue my journalism career.

would i absolutely love it?

would i be so happy and contented?

i dont think so. siguro kung solong katawan lang ako... na hindi ko sinusuportahan ang pamilya ko. maatim kong mag sulat for a living. ok lang sakin na 12k starting ko or 10k. basta im writing.

pero hindi eh. i need money. i need to save money. i need to give money. i need money to survive.

akala ko talaga, im such a loser for not pursuing a journalistic career. im such a loser kasi wala akong nababalitaan na batchmate kong nag end up sa cc but me.

but then eto na, i know the truth.

napaisip na rin ako eh, buti nang ganito. di ko man pinag aralan to, atleast binubuhay ako.

hindi na praktikal na ipilit mo na ang pinag aralan mo ang makuha mong trabaho. hindi rin naman masama yun. pero sa sitwasyon natin ngayon, di talaga advisable. mahirap ang buhay ngayon. kailangan natin ng pera.

saka ko na siguro iisipin ang pagsusulat. pag nakapag ipon na ako ng malaki laki. na hindi ako nahihirapang hugutin ang pera kung saan.

or...

mag asawa na lang ako ng bilyonaryo na may stocks sa isang broadcasting company at magdemand na gawan ako ng sarili kong show or magazine! ahahahahaha!!!

wish ko lang.