news of my old world.

ahum. well, i'll try blogging from work now. just now.

i manage to squeeze a little petiks time at work and read my past journals. most of the blogs/rants/raves are from my years in college- way back 2 years ago.

medyo naculture shock lang ako sa mga nabasa ko. na gaing mismo sa utak ko. weird diba? anyways, i was reading the part of i think im on my freshmen year. I thought all this time my freshman year was the bomb. i always remember it as full of fun and childish candor. i wasnt expecting the 'bombs' i read. akala ko all fun ako nun. the people are great, the setting, the idea everything. pero di pala. maraming ka-shit-an din pala nangyari. and most of the people i've known in frehsman year dont even talk to me. they're not even my facebook friends. ahaha!

sophomore year?! dont even get me started. i think my mind totally blacked out during sophomore year. i dont even remember my most enjoyable time, much more the shittiest.

junior year was anything but. its like the scar of my whole college life. the subjects are the hardest. the people are insane! but it turned out the start of a new beginning.

senior year. i'll discuss that in a different era.

all in all, i cant evenr ecognise myself in college. i wanted to say na sobrang nagmature na ko. pero parang hindi pa rin. i think the only thing that change in my life big time are prioritise. my prios are way off now. now my prios are:

paying for the house
investing on a lot
pimping the car
saving for my future
my sis' college tuitions
and other work related stuff (which will bore you out)

i can't even see my friends on a weekend. my life is so grown up.
buti na lang nagkaron ng reunion. thanks sa fb. reunion part 1 and 2! na nasundan pa ng maraming inuman session. the reunion mad eme think na, namimiss ko pala ang mga taong to. mga kaklase ko sila since kinder days pa!

isa pang realisation. napakababaw ko pala nun. feeling ko ang galing galing ko. feeling ko ang lalim kong mag isip. shallow pala ako nun. narelaise ko rin na TH ako nun, papa-impress ako sa mga prof kong ang tataas ng lipad sa literary and philo world. di ako bagay sa mundo nila. wala akong alam.
hanggang nagyon nga di ko pa rin maxado gets yung concept ni nietsczhe eh. tama ba spelling?

ngayon ko lang talaga naisip na ang hirap pala, pag hawak mo na ang buhay mo. kapag napigtas na ang tali mo sa magulang mo at ikaw na ang humihila ng direksyon ng pelikula mo. at dahil rin sigurong wala akong pwedeng sisihin sa mga desisyon ko, kundi ako.

sana kahit 1 araw lang magin 10 years old ako ulit. o kaya sanggol. para mas appreciate ko kung ano at sino ako noon.