hey soul sister

(eastwood christmas yr.2009) last picture (yes i blend with the light)

hey soul sister by train and teenage dream by darren criss and the warblers is in loop in my pc.

im so excited (well not really) that christmas is coming. though i dont have money, its fine because my nephew will be spending christmas with us here.

the real reason i wanted to blog is to have a definite list of christmas gift to myself and family. you see, whenever i plan for any gift, if i dont put in writing (any form of writing) i will deviate from it or will think of a different gift while im shopping.

so the list will be:

me: new camera. 9the samsung ive been eye-ing) i forgot the model name as i lost the brochure but i know it when i see it

dad: starbucks mug w/their christmas blend and MONEY so he can buy whatever it is that he wants for himself.

mom: honestly and not being boastful or anything here, mom has everything she has and needs. kitchenware??? she doesnt even get to use some of her utensils, bowls, pans... i'll prolly give her a full day at the spa so she can relax.

nephew: i bought way too many stuff for him already and its not even christmas. prolly an educational book and another toy.

brother: i know excatly what my brother need, tshirts. tons and tons of it. since he became a dad, he has never bought anything for himself, because everything is for the baby. so im gonna give him 6 shirts this xmas. the ones that has cool logos.

sister: sis has more choices. i know her type and likes, its usually what i buy. you would be surprise that most of our clothes are the same just in different color and size. she's emulating the older sister ya know. i think i'll buy her a dress.

i'll let you in on a little secret, ive been saving for her grad gift, i dont know what to give her yet, ipod or what?? she's a bit spoiled aint she??

well, shes our bunso and she's the luckiest really, when i was her age, its supposed to be kuya's turn to spoil me, but he cant and he didnt. even with the parents he didnt spoil them. im not blaming him really, because he struggled then and still does. so im actually doing it, since im most able and i can afford to do it... its also some for of payback to my parents who struggled when im college. (coz i was sick then and my medication is costly together with school.) and im glad they're happy.

with brother also, i tend to bend a lot of times with him, especially with the nephew. i once blew my whole savings just to help brother with the hospital bill. but that's okay. whats important is family and my nephew is well and great. besides i have my whole life to live and i will earn it back anyways.

i hope this christmas would be fruitful for all of us. my gift shopping will start next week. wish me luck!

i got a date with the night - yeah yeah yeahs

honestly, i dunno what to call this entry, so i just type whatever it is that came to my mind.

another change of schedule, for a week. just great right. honestly, i have no qualms on having my schedule changed so drastically, as long as my Rd is 2 days. no split off me. ayheytit.

anyways.

skype. i love you. you get me connected to my bffs wherever we are in the world.

earlier this morning, i spoke with my BFF's bars and nix. bars in the us and nix is in manila. i cried a little because i havent seen bars since she immigrated to the us 8 months ago. she's preggers and she doesnt have us girls to help her or to talk to her like we usually do. she even said, "kelan ba tayo huling nag usap ng ganito?" by ganito she meant rowdy, loud, full of jokes and finishing each others sentences... so when we did video call, it was super fun! she changed a lot since becoming pregnant. her nose is huge! her neck is darker and her tummy is bulging. i asked her to let me see her tummy because apparently her son, Unoh (bitchesso) is doing all sorts of tumbling and thumping in her belly, so there she went and put the camera on her belly and i can see her belly doing a wave. her son is so chismoso!!! and active!! God bless my godson!! yes will be a godmother again.

nix too joined our conversation, so we did a conference. we talked for 4 hours! of course both nix and i are in the phils so we could easily see each other right?? wrong. we barely see each other because of our schedule im in graveyard shift, while she's on normal mode (read: day shift). and our rest days are usually not in sync. and sometimes i spend my rest days sleeping all day. but we do text and call each other up just to say hi and a quick chitchat.

but it's nothing compares to us, all of us talk altogether. and when we talk its like we just saw each other yesterday.

i have found my GFF's. actually. i think, we found each other, since pre-k we're together. so i think this is more of a till death do us part thing.

listening to christmas carols ive DLed.

gives you hell part 2

im pretty sure that im an evil person. i laugh at your misery, i find it amusing that you feelings are constantly hurt, im basking in your defeated ego and i laugh at your pride (that you so highly stood with).

actually, i think and over and done with you EH. i dont need to feel like im ugly and im incompetent to care all the time. im good at comprising but somehow with you, its always... i dunno... im unfair?? its always been for the past month a whirlwind of PETTY arguments. like i dont text you enough. i dont call you enough, i always fell asleep when were talking, yadda yadda yadda...

alright, and i apologise for those things. but good god EH!! im working nightshift! at daylight im a fucking zombie!!! i try my very best to be alive and interested with no sleep for 13-16 hours. just so i could spend time with you. god give me a fucking break!!!

i gave you the break and space you wanted, i didnt argue with you. because you said that you needed to think were you are going and if its with me. fine. (though in my head i said screw you)

you know what i realised in that time... screw you. youre a fucking deadweight. im carrying a fucking deadweight. youve not only manage to stress me with your whines, you also manage to cause a little rupture in my sanity.

you know what happened when im in no contact with you? im more alive at work, i can finally spend some RnR with my bff pau, whom i havent seen in ages, go to the spa, go to the salon, got my nails did, and finally SLEEP with no interruption.

and now, you want back? you finally realised that you wanted me??

hell will freeze over first before ill do that.

cheers!!

gff + bff's

it was so nice to see my bff pau! i am so happy, you really cant explain it. we havent seen each other for months or years i think. hay its sooo much fun reminiscing the good ol' days. we even talked about our other bff who is now living in the us. she hasnt come yet since she moved when we we're starting freshman college, so its roughly around 7 years already?? hayss.... so hard to find great girlfriends these days, its soo good to have someone like them to be friends with. no mater the distance and the time that we've been away, when we see each other its all the same. in honor of great girlfriends below are some pictures of the lovely ladies that are taking over my life since pre-k.