gives you hell part 2

im pretty sure that im an evil person. i laugh at your misery, i find it amusing that you feelings are constantly hurt, im basking in your defeated ego and i laugh at your pride (that you so highly stood with).

actually, i think and over and done with you EH. i dont need to feel like im ugly and im incompetent to care all the time. im good at comprising but somehow with you, its always... i dunno... im unfair?? its always been for the past month a whirlwind of PETTY arguments. like i dont text you enough. i dont call you enough, i always fell asleep when were talking, yadda yadda yadda...

alright, and i apologise for those things. but good god EH!! im working nightshift! at daylight im a fucking zombie!!! i try my very best to be alive and interested with no sleep for 13-16 hours. just so i could spend time with you. god give me a fucking break!!!

i gave you the break and space you wanted, i didnt argue with you. because you said that you needed to think were you are going and if its with me. fine. (though in my head i said screw you)

you know what i realised in that time... screw you. youre a fucking deadweight. im carrying a fucking deadweight. youve not only manage to stress me with your whines, you also manage to cause a little rupture in my sanity.

you know what happened when im in no contact with you? im more alive at work, i can finally spend some RnR with my bff pau, whom i havent seen in ages, go to the spa, go to the salon, got my nails did, and finally SLEEP with no interruption.

and now, you want back? you finally realised that you wanted me??

hell will freeze over first before ill do that.

cheers!!