blogging has evolve and became very diverse. it started out as a journal, just a journal. a place where you can pour your heart out. now blogging became many things, an advertising medium, a hate letter, a popularity contest and whatever it is you want and percieve it to be.
blogging has blown way out of proportions. people are criticizing it, chasticising it... i say what the fuck do you people care?!
if you dont like what you see, you're SOOOO free to not look at it, or even read it. but good Lord dont try to banish it from cyberspace. you're taking the bloggers right to express him/herself. and besides its a futile attempt to silence the blogger, because if you "ever" successfully 'shut it down', the blogger can simply sign up for it again and made a new blog. there's no stopping free speech.
because blogging is a way for people like me/us, to express ourselves in this hypocritical world of ours. its a way to relieve ourselves of the pain, pressure and stress that we feel inside. blogging is therapeutic for us, because we cant afford to pay for a therapist to listen to us rant, and we do not want to burden our friends or family who has problems of their own, or sometimes they are the subject of our frustrations.
if you find it very unappealing or even offensive, then stop going back and reading each entries. AGAIN, i must insist on the point that THIS IS A JOURNAL. whatever it is that's written here, are personal, defensive and offensive at the same time.
if we chose to show our feelings to the world, dont judge us, we're just being TRUE. we are not hiding anything, we are merely letting out the evil lurking inside of us. AGAIN, IF YOU DONT LIKE IT, STOP READING IT.
this is a blog. a journal. a diary.
if the person writing in the blog bashes another person or what, its his/her way of blogging.
as for brian gorell, the man who made blogging oh-so-controversial i love his BLOG!!! its his blog. his right. his last chance to reclaim what is rightfully his, in the first place, and if blogging is the last resort that he has, then by all means blog! bloggers like me support you!
TEAM BRIAN PHILIPPINES!
4.25.2008
ms. independent. ngeee
tudud. tudud. tudud.
okey now. isang buwan. one month to go, i'll be living the single life. no more living in dorms, no more bed spacing, no more living with relatives and family friend. its all on-my-own for me now. hopefully, if things run smoothly and according to plan, by may, i'll be living on my own in manila. libis or pasig is the location. its not a condo unit ha? wala akong ganong pera, apt lang, studio type. pwede na, meron akong nakita sa may libis, actually yung pinsan ko, malapit 1 ride away sa workplace ko, sa tiendesitas, sm pasig, gateway, araneta, at walking distance lang sa eastwood. woohooo! masaya to! di na sya living in commune, living alone na sya. kaya ma-e-excercise ang aking plastic. syempre bibili ako ng ref, industrial fan, tsaka stove, ung laptop ko, malapit ng mabili ung laptop na sony vaio pink/red kung ano available, pero gusto ko rin ung sa dell, ung red series nila. bahala na. its all up to it specs. research on it more.
pero im super excited na! gusto ko ng magkaroon ng sarili kong apt. rakenrol!!!
invited kayo sa housewarming ko! [pagdating ng araw] hahaha!
okey now. isang buwan. one month to go, i'll be living the single life. no more living in dorms, no more bed spacing, no more living with relatives and family friend. its all on-my-own for me now. hopefully, if things run smoothly and according to plan, by may, i'll be living on my own in manila. libis or pasig is the location. its not a condo unit ha? wala akong ganong pera, apt lang, studio type. pwede na, meron akong nakita sa may libis, actually yung pinsan ko, malapit 1 ride away sa workplace ko, sa tiendesitas, sm pasig, gateway, araneta, at walking distance lang sa eastwood. woohooo! masaya to! di na sya living in commune, living alone na sya. kaya ma-e-excercise ang aking plastic. syempre bibili ako ng ref, industrial fan, tsaka stove, ung laptop ko, malapit ng mabili ung laptop na sony vaio pink/red kung ano available, pero gusto ko rin ung sa dell, ung red series nila. bahala na. its all up to it specs. research on it more.
pero im super excited na! gusto ko ng magkaroon ng sarili kong apt. rakenrol!!!
invited kayo sa housewarming ko! [pagdating ng araw] hahaha!
4.24.2008
opera!
whew. parang napagod ako sa kakatype ah. eh iilang words pa lang natatype ko. anyways, i bruised my left pinky kahapon. because of some stupidity. ang sakit nia, in all fairness. ahahah!
well, earlier i was thinking of blogging about my grandma's pancake but as i sat here, while watching AI tanggalan night. naalala ko kagabi rocked! ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER night!!! yes!!! who hadn't heard of ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER!!! sir ANDREW! i tell yah! if i ever get to new york city, broadway st, i'll definitely - DEFINITELY spend many hours watching musicals. i watched hairspray and rent on dvd, i liked it, but i bet i LOVE the THEATER performance better. im a fan of theater. and theater acting is more raw and definitely not all can pull it off. that's why i have great respect of theater actors.
if i ever get a chance i would really watch these:
CATS - i was able to watch a few snippets of these performance through discovery channel
PHANTOM OF THE OPERA
RENT
HAIRSPRAY
THE COLOR PURPLE
LION KING
JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR
and before we part dearies, i'll give you one of my fave song from SIR ANDREW
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.
Christine
Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.
Raoul
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.
Christine
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.
Raoul
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from you solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.
Christine
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.
Together
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.
Christine
Say you love me...
Raoul
You know I do.
Together
Love me, that's all I ask of you.
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me...
that's all I ask of you.
*hope y'all love it. its gonna be one of the songs at my wedding. when i get married.
well, earlier i was thinking of blogging about my grandma's pancake but as i sat here, while watching AI tanggalan night. naalala ko kagabi rocked! ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER night!!! yes!!! who hadn't heard of ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER!!! sir ANDREW! i tell yah! if i ever get to new york city, broadway st, i'll definitely - DEFINITELY spend many hours watching musicals. i watched hairspray and rent on dvd, i liked it, but i bet i LOVE the THEATER performance better. im a fan of theater. and theater acting is more raw and definitely not all can pull it off. that's why i have great respect of theater actors.
if i ever get a chance i would really watch these:
CATS - i was able to watch a few snippets of these performance through discovery channel
PHANTOM OF THE OPERA
RENT
HAIRSPRAY
THE COLOR PURPLE
LION KING
JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR
and before we part dearies, i'll give you one of my fave song from SIR ANDREW
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.
Christine
Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.
Raoul
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.
Christine
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.
Raoul
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from you solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.
Christine
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.
Together
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.
Christine
Say you love me...
Raoul
You know I do.
Together
Love me, that's all I ask of you.
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me...
that's all I ask of you.
*hope y'all love it. its gonna be one of the songs at my wedding. when i get married.
4.23.2008
10 things you dont know about me
wala lang, natutuwa lang akong sabihin to senyo. di naman sya importante, pero keber ba! blog ko to eh
10. HINDI ako kumakain ng maitim, kahit anong maitim, na tipong di ko na nakikita kung karne o gulay ba yung isusubo ko. seryoso. kaya di ako kumakain ng dinuguan, champorado etc. etc.
9. i kill people in my head. if my tally is correct, i've killed 463 people already, and tortured and kept alive 10 people for my pleasure. i visit them in my head before i go to sleep. ha!
8. my limit in beer is 7 bottles. when i get to my 8th bottle, i start to swerve and sway to 70's disco music in my head.
7. i cannot eat with mismatched spoon and fork. since we were kids we we're trained to eat with matching silverware, glass and plate. we're not rich we just like order.
6. i sleep with 7 pillows. 2 for my head, 2 on each side of the bed to act as a barrier, 1 for my hampalan [the pillow you hug at night. bakit 7? kasi gusto ko yung feeling na nararamdaman ko lahat na may katabi ako kunwari, kasi feeling ko secure ako.
5. when people tell me things, i pretend i forget so they tell me again, so i can daydream while they're talking.
4. too much caffeine and sobrang init ng ulo [i.e. asar galit inis] are the main cause of my migraine. shet!
3. i change name everytime i meet people, so when people yell my fake name in public, i dont look or pretend i dont hear them.
2. my favorite curse word is LECHE.
1. im rendered powerless in the presence of horrendous odours. may it be, halitosis, feces, imburnal, pozo negro! basta! lahat ng mababaho, tiklop ako!
now you know 10 things about me. what about you?
10. HINDI ako kumakain ng maitim, kahit anong maitim, na tipong di ko na nakikita kung karne o gulay ba yung isusubo ko. seryoso. kaya di ako kumakain ng dinuguan, champorado etc. etc.
9. i kill people in my head. if my tally is correct, i've killed 463 people already, and tortured and kept alive 10 people for my pleasure. i visit them in my head before i go to sleep. ha!
8. my limit in beer is 7 bottles. when i get to my 8th bottle, i start to swerve and sway to 70's disco music in my head.
7. i cannot eat with mismatched spoon and fork. since we were kids we we're trained to eat with matching silverware, glass and plate. we're not rich we just like order.
6. i sleep with 7 pillows. 2 for my head, 2 on each side of the bed to act as a barrier, 1 for my hampalan [the pillow you hug at night. bakit 7? kasi gusto ko yung feeling na nararamdaman ko lahat na may katabi ako kunwari, kasi feeling ko secure ako.
5. when people tell me things, i pretend i forget so they tell me again, so i can daydream while they're talking.
4. too much caffeine and sobrang init ng ulo [i.e. asar galit inis] are the main cause of my migraine. shet!
3. i change name everytime i meet people, so when people yell my fake name in public, i dont look or pretend i dont hear them.
2. my favorite curse word is LECHE.
1. im rendered powerless in the presence of horrendous odours. may it be, halitosis, feces, imburnal, pozo negro! basta! lahat ng mababaho, tiklop ako!
now you know 10 things about me. what about you?
4.22.2008
whatwhat?!!!
ha! hell yeah! electric blue nail polish! rakenrol!
arent you happy with people that when you ask a certain question makes you think of the bigger picture on why he/she said that?
example, when you ask someone whats your fave color, vanilla people will just say, red, blue, green whatever... but when you ask those chocolate chip cookie dough peepz whats their fave color, they'll answer flamingo pink, hot rod fire engine red, california sunset orange. diba? more rakenrol ang mga taong to! parang gusto ko silang makilala pa!
this people are creative and imaginative pare... parang they live in a multi-colored 70's mellow pot smoke world. cool.
adik sayo. adik sa atin.
ung friend ko from manila, sabi nia sakin sa text,
"alam mo adik ka sa mint... ano ba meron sa mint?"
sabi ko
"malamig. ewan, masarap mint eh."
"shet, ano masarap ron?"
"well, mint candies, mint chocolates, mint chocolate chip cookies, mint ice cream, mint ice tea, mint cake, mint puto, mint corn chips, mint potato chips, mint foot scrub, mint facial scrub, mint gum, mint water, mint t-shirt..."
"leche. mint."
eh masarap naman talaga yung mint eh, and i read somewhere that too much mint can leave you 'chidless' fuck that. pake ko.
arent you happy with people that when you ask a certain question makes you think of the bigger picture on why he/she said that?
example, when you ask someone whats your fave color, vanilla people will just say, red, blue, green whatever... but when you ask those chocolate chip cookie dough peepz whats their fave color, they'll answer flamingo pink, hot rod fire engine red, california sunset orange. diba? more rakenrol ang mga taong to! parang gusto ko silang makilala pa!
this people are creative and imaginative pare... parang they live in a multi-colored 70's mellow pot smoke world. cool.
adik sayo. adik sa atin.
ung friend ko from manila, sabi nia sakin sa text,
"alam mo adik ka sa mint... ano ba meron sa mint?"
sabi ko
"malamig. ewan, masarap mint eh."
"shet, ano masarap ron?"
"well, mint candies, mint chocolates, mint chocolate chip cookies, mint ice cream, mint ice tea, mint cake, mint puto, mint corn chips, mint potato chips, mint foot scrub, mint facial scrub, mint gum, mint water, mint t-shirt..."
"leche. mint."
eh masarap naman talaga yung mint eh, and i read somewhere that too much mint can leave you 'chidless' fuck that. pake ko.
4.21.2008
duck tales and jologs days
isang malaking WOW!
ang tagal ko ring di nkpagblog! busy kasi akong maging jologs eh. wahahahaha. LOL! ineenjoy ko lang at sinusulit ang summer bago ako bumalik sa trabaho. tama na ang 1 month na pabandying bandying. tama na. kailangan ko nang kumita ng pera, kailangan ko ng pagbigyan ang mga bisyo ko! ahahahha!!
hay pag nagsimula na ako sa monday mamimiss ko na ang pbb, ghost fighter [never grew tired of this], eat bulaga!, cartoon network, movies sa hbo at cinemax. hay... pero life must go on eh. kaya sori na lang ako.
my kuya called last night. around 12 na yata sya tumawag para lang sabihin that the chucks i bought like 3 months ago sa factory outlet nila dito sa subic, was just released sa mega!!! wahahaha!!! napaglumaan ko na yung design!!! in your face fellow chuck addicts!
oh yeah before i forgot, was on my way home last thursday i think, or was it wednesday.... whatever. nweiz sa harap ako pinaupo ng dispatcher, reserved seat pare! okey, yun, we we're cruisin' along nlex, tas mga ewan 400 yards away nakita namin yung mga ducks [nakalimutan ko nanaman ang tagalog ng duck leche] patawid sa expressway!! wtf! eh alanganamang magmenor si manong, eh nasa expressway kami and we're going like 100kph, so nasagasaan ang mga duck. siguro mga 2 o 3 silang nasagasaan, sumabit pa! shet. kawawang mga duck.
ang tagal ko ring di nkpagblog! busy kasi akong maging jologs eh. wahahahaha. LOL! ineenjoy ko lang at sinusulit ang summer bago ako bumalik sa trabaho. tama na ang 1 month na pabandying bandying. tama na. kailangan ko nang kumita ng pera, kailangan ko ng pagbigyan ang mga bisyo ko! ahahahha!!
hay pag nagsimula na ako sa monday mamimiss ko na ang pbb, ghost fighter [never grew tired of this], eat bulaga!, cartoon network, movies sa hbo at cinemax. hay... pero life must go on eh. kaya sori na lang ako.
my kuya called last night. around 12 na yata sya tumawag para lang sabihin that the chucks i bought like 3 months ago sa factory outlet nila dito sa subic, was just released sa mega!!! wahahaha!!! napaglumaan ko na yung design!!! in your face fellow chuck addicts!
oh yeah before i forgot, was on my way home last thursday i think, or was it wednesday.... whatever. nweiz sa harap ako pinaupo ng dispatcher, reserved seat pare! okey, yun, we we're cruisin' along nlex, tas mga ewan 400 yards away nakita namin yung mga ducks [nakalimutan ko nanaman ang tagalog ng duck leche] patawid sa expressway!! wtf! eh alanganamang magmenor si manong, eh nasa expressway kami and we're going like 100kph, so nasagasaan ang mga duck. siguro mga 2 o 3 silang nasagasaan, sumabit pa! shet. kawawang mga duck.
4.14.2008
uaap classic
naalala ko lang, habang nanunuod ako uaap classic replay nung sunday, ang dami ko palang namiss sa araneta. leche. games at cheerdance. bukod sa mahirap kumuha ng pesteng ticket sa kahit ano mang cheerdance competition, mahirap rin ang kumuha ng ticket para sa game ng tigers. taena. kailangan sa cheerdance ngayong 2008, kailangan!!! kundi papatay ako ng pikon! ahahahha
4.11.2008
nakakasawa ang pag ibig
napapansin ko, maxadong seryoso ang mga entries ko. kaya babawan natin, hahaha.. di naman. nakakaloka lang.
ang hirap pala talaga ng pressure no. sabi ng mom ko, may bf naman daw ako.. dahil ako na lang sa lahat ng kabataan dito sa pamilya namin ay may 'pinagkakaabalahan'. eh ayoko eh. ayoko. hindi dahil sa walang may gusto, kundi sa kadahilanang ayoko na.
nakakapagod magmahal. lalo na pag matagal na kayo pagkatapos ay mag hihiwalay lang kayo. kahit gaano mo iningatan at minahal yung tao, wala rin. napakalaking emotional stress ng isang relationship. malaking emotional investment ang inilalaan mo, pero ano? nauuwi lang lahat sa wala. yung akala mong sya na, buo na ang loob mong SIYA na nga, biglang mawawala.
nakakatwa nga eh, anong alam ng isang tulad ko? isang 21 year old sa relationship? kung tutuusin bata pa ako, marami pa akong mararanasan... marami pa akong makikilala... pero bakit ang bilis kong mapagod? ewan. hindi ko alam. siguro nga, dapat hindi ako nadadala sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, dapat ituloy ko to.
hindi ko kasi binibilang kung ilan na ang 'pinagkaabalahan' ko eh. its not in the quantity, its in the quality. kahit ba isa o 2 lang sila sa buhay ko, basta alam kong totoo yun, okey na ako. hay.
siguro iba lang talaga ako.
sana pagdating nia, sya na talaga. sya na. wala ng iba.
ang hirap pala talaga ng pressure no. sabi ng mom ko, may bf naman daw ako.. dahil ako na lang sa lahat ng kabataan dito sa pamilya namin ay may 'pinagkakaabalahan'. eh ayoko eh. ayoko. hindi dahil sa walang may gusto, kundi sa kadahilanang ayoko na.
nakakapagod magmahal. lalo na pag matagal na kayo pagkatapos ay mag hihiwalay lang kayo. kahit gaano mo iningatan at minahal yung tao, wala rin. napakalaking emotional stress ng isang relationship. malaking emotional investment ang inilalaan mo, pero ano? nauuwi lang lahat sa wala. yung akala mong sya na, buo na ang loob mong SIYA na nga, biglang mawawala.
nakakatwa nga eh, anong alam ng isang tulad ko? isang 21 year old sa relationship? kung tutuusin bata pa ako, marami pa akong mararanasan... marami pa akong makikilala... pero bakit ang bilis kong mapagod? ewan. hindi ko alam. siguro nga, dapat hindi ako nadadala sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, dapat ituloy ko to.
hindi ko kasi binibilang kung ilan na ang 'pinagkaabalahan' ko eh. its not in the quantity, its in the quality. kahit ba isa o 2 lang sila sa buhay ko, basta alam kong totoo yun, okey na ako. hay.
siguro iba lang talaga ako.
sana pagdating nia, sya na talaga. sya na. wala ng iba.
love means renouncing strength
- milan kundera, the unbearable lightness of being
4.06.2008
review-rave-rant = review
my director of the moment-probably forever
as you read the title, im writing about my favorite director of the moment, probably forever.
the rawness and the intensity was clearly interpreted throughout the film. the naturalism of human nature was so exquisitely real to me that i second guessed, if the film that im watching was actually a raw footage of these tribe with cameras trailing behind them or a real hollywood movie. the emotions all throughout was conveyed in a very dynamic and tortured level of intimacy and awe that i was captivated.
the creativity of it all, the storytelling, the gore, the history, superbly translated to film.
i especially like the part where jaguar paw was pushed to his limits. you can see it in his eyes the longing for the freedom and his family and the willingness to survive was so intense that you'd feel your own heart pounding from stress and restlesness.
and another was the bloodshed of the film itself. yes, it was gorry, but then again, it was REAL. it wasn't as overpoweringly gross like some horror films, it was done magnificently and tastefully, point in case, the part where the jaguar lunged to the tribeman and totally tore his face off. that happens. that may actually happened in those times. nature in its purest and bravest form. brilliant!
the part that endeared me the most was the birth-ing of jaguar paw's son. torturingly beautiful. i am actually lost for adjectives for this scene. it is overwhelming.
and who am i referring to?
its the dark and tortured soul of the creative genius that is MEL GIBSON.
make more films... films that inspires, films that move. films that doesnt have the hollywood flair. films that potrays the rawness of human and animal nature. thank you for the passion. thank you for the geniosity. thank you for these films: The Passion of the Christ and Apocalypto.
as you read the title, im writing about my favorite director of the moment, probably forever.
the rawness and the intensity was clearly interpreted throughout the film. the naturalism of human nature was so exquisitely real to me that i second guessed, if the film that im watching was actually a raw footage of these tribe with cameras trailing behind them or a real hollywood movie. the emotions all throughout was conveyed in a very dynamic and tortured level of intimacy and awe that i was captivated.
the creativity of it all, the storytelling, the gore, the history, superbly translated to film.
i especially like the part where jaguar paw was pushed to his limits. you can see it in his eyes the longing for the freedom and his family and the willingness to survive was so intense that you'd feel your own heart pounding from stress and restlesness.
and another was the bloodshed of the film itself. yes, it was gorry, but then again, it was REAL. it wasn't as overpoweringly gross like some horror films, it was done magnificently and tastefully, point in case, the part where the jaguar lunged to the tribeman and totally tore his face off. that happens. that may actually happened in those times. nature in its purest and bravest form. brilliant!
the part that endeared me the most was the birth-ing of jaguar paw's son. torturingly beautiful. i am actually lost for adjectives for this scene. it is overwhelming.
and who am i referring to?
its the dark and tortured soul of the creative genius that is MEL GIBSON.
make more films... films that inspires, films that move. films that doesnt have the hollywood flair. films that potrays the rawness of human and animal nature. thank you for the passion. thank you for the geniosity. thank you for these films: The Passion of the Christ and Apocalypto.
4.05.2008
25 years of forbidden kingdom
kung may pera lang ako bibilhin ko ang bagong album ni MJ, at panonoorin ko sa sine ang bagong pelikula ni Jackie Chan at Jet Li! ano ba yun?! ASTEEEEGGG tsong! im sure magiging 2nd favorite chinese movie ko to of all time!!! syempre numero uno es The Curse of the Golden Flower!!! wwwwaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!
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