wedding dress

no, not for me. not now atleast. was watching some show on discovery travel and living earlier with the mom, it was a wedding show of some sort. a mom was passing down her wedding gown to her daughter, and they gave it to a seamstress/designer to "re-work" it, in the words of christian siriano, make it fierce and fabulous! whatever.

so nweiz, i asked my mom about her wedding dress, and she said she had none. she just wore a simple white dress, when they got married. well, i know that mom and dad got married in city hall and they got married again in church, what i didnt know is that she didnt wear a gown! i always thought that she dressed up for the occassion.

she said that they did get married in church but it was just the two of them. and the priest and his assistants. no one else present. so she just wore a dress and my dad wore that bell bottom jeans i simply wanted to shred to pieces and a white polo.

wow. i was sad and disheartened yet deeply touched by the story.

it was supposed to be the most special day in a woman's life to have wedding and to wear a wedding gown, and my mom didn't get a chance to have that. yet, it was so intimate and personal and heartfelt. to have someone you truly love to be there. just the two of you there. present. all in the eyes of God. to present just the both of you together. no other people. more personal.

my mom said, she wouldnt change any of it. she doesn't want a grand or lavish wedding, just the two of them together is enough to make her happy. and its okey for her not to wear a wedding dress, just as long as she has a wedding ring. a band the symbolizes their love. a wedding dress doesnt say a thing to her.

wow. another wow. and another wow. i never looked at wedding that way. when i get married i'll probably do the same thing, except, i'll wear a wedding dress, and ivited prolly like 15-25 people. just the people that really matter to the both of us.

grand and lavish weddings are just ways of socializing, or in a lot of cases, a way to showcase the riches and money shits that people have. the thought of celebrating your most intimate moment in your life, with people you dont know, smiling and taking pictures with people you just met. i hate that. it'll give me a pained expression of happiness and disbelief. with the thought of "i dont know this people, why are they here? can they even remember my name without reading it from the invite?"

haha.