Happy Holidays!

baby its cold outside...

wheww!! merry christmas everyone in the virtual world and whoever cares for me here! LOL!

Its my favorite holiday and i love it. AND. i love that i was able to spend it at home with my loved ones and not at work where im usually miserable and envious of people who can spend holidays together!!

so lets start my day!

mother and father and sister picked me up at werk earlier in manila! whooo!! im so ecstatic about this that i didnt even feel that i havent slept for 17 hrs straight! so we went to SM (the biggest mall in the phils) to do some last minute shopping. as you know, im in a very hectic schedule and i wasnt able to shop for anything. so i bought my sis a handbag, i gave dad cash and i gave mom everything she wants in the grocery store.

we had fun! and i finally bought a camera! a new camera!! wow! i dont usually care about the make, and model, what i care about is its functionality. and lately color. because all my stuff is pink now, from my ipod to laptop and cp and now my camera. I decided to go with a sony cam, as that is what ive been using for the longest time and im pretty proficient about it. wonderin' whats my cam? here it is:

so after all that, we went home and before we actually hit the house, we went to royal duty free, as we had to buy some last minute items that we still lack for our noche buena. and also fillings for the loot bags that im giving away for later.

and all in all. it was fun!! till next christmas!!

soulmates - natasha bedingfield

its shaky at werk but im staying positive. hope all of us will emerge with scracthes and bruises but still in one piece.

im so envious of P right now, he got out.

***

hating on them right now. all the fucking promises are being broken left and right. and i say fine. you win. im done. dont ask me for help if ever you need it. as you can see, im not like my MOM or DAD. i can actually take it all and be uncaring. im sorry i love my nephew but i am on a thread.

test my patience. try me.

***

i have never left the house since i got back. and i have never seen my relatives since i stepped outta door.

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ive been eating nothing but chips and chocs because im too lazy to cook. well i did chook my own version of fried rice for bfast.

its the most wonderful time of the year

hey its christmas!

well, almost. time flies so fast, i better fasten my seatbelt or else i may crash.

so... what happened to me.

i dunno. my twitter acct has been like the buzz/paparazzi/showbiz central thing due to a lot of issues in our lives. some are made up, some are real with sources. its actually fun, since all of my friends are getting the hang of it.

anyways, oh yeah, the campaign in FB, wherein you change your profile pic to that of a cartoon character to show your support on STOPPING CHILD ABUSE.

i changed it to JEM!

i for one supports that cause a billion times. I hate seeing children abused. even if they're mean or rude. I mean, they are CHILDREN. their judgement is impaired and not yet FULLY DEVELOPED. unlike us, i know thats not a reason for kids being mean, but think about it, were you mean when you were a kid? all you think about is being cool right? and i dunno, but bad = cool in our world. right?

moving on, as we are deviating for our topic, and yes, this is just one of the topics i am wiling to discuss and bore your brains out. CHILD ABUSE. i have a not so scientific yet maybe already discovered theory about child abuse. here it is: you ABUSE a CHILD because a.) they are small and afraid of you b.) its your way of AUTHORITY c.) your suppress when you were younger so you take it out on a child which totally means your a fucking basketcase d.) worst, you get sexual pleasure when seeing a child in pain which makes you a disgusting vile pig pedophile with a satanic sadist fanaticism. which would make me HUNT you down.

like srsly.

next!!

before we get too serious, let us make our DREAM CHRISTMAS GIFTS!

woot! woot!

why'd i say dream, because i know for a FACT. that i will recieve none of the things i actually put here and will end up, saving for it and buying it myself.

yes, its the hello kitty doc martens. I dont normally like Hello Kitty, but cmon! its black and pink with a bow!

TUBE SOCKS!! i love love love tube socks! especially in rainbow colors!

hello! didnt you get it yet, bows! I AM OBSESSED WITH THEM!

clear dome umbrella with yellow border or PINK border i wouldnt mind

again, BOW! i tell ya' im obsessed! this is i really REALLY REALLY LOVE this, this will totally match my minnie mouse dress!

CRAYONS!! i am addicted to them!

LADY GAGA hair bow! i want a pink one and a brown one to match my herr!

so that's it, i only have simple wishes, not too extravagant. gadgets are not really a necessity for me, but still very girly.

hey soul sister

(eastwood christmas yr.2009) last picture (yes i blend with the light)

hey soul sister by train and teenage dream by darren criss and the warblers is in loop in my pc.

im so excited (well not really) that christmas is coming. though i dont have money, its fine because my nephew will be spending christmas with us here.

the real reason i wanted to blog is to have a definite list of christmas gift to myself and family. you see, whenever i plan for any gift, if i dont put in writing (any form of writing) i will deviate from it or will think of a different gift while im shopping.

so the list will be:

me: new camera. 9the samsung ive been eye-ing) i forgot the model name as i lost the brochure but i know it when i see it

dad: starbucks mug w/their christmas blend and MONEY so he can buy whatever it is that he wants for himself.

mom: honestly and not being boastful or anything here, mom has everything she has and needs. kitchenware??? she doesnt even get to use some of her utensils, bowls, pans... i'll prolly give her a full day at the spa so she can relax.

nephew: i bought way too many stuff for him already and its not even christmas. prolly an educational book and another toy.

brother: i know excatly what my brother need, tshirts. tons and tons of it. since he became a dad, he has never bought anything for himself, because everything is for the baby. so im gonna give him 6 shirts this xmas. the ones that has cool logos.

sister: sis has more choices. i know her type and likes, its usually what i buy. you would be surprise that most of our clothes are the same just in different color and size. she's emulating the older sister ya know. i think i'll buy her a dress.

i'll let you in on a little secret, ive been saving for her grad gift, i dont know what to give her yet, ipod or what?? she's a bit spoiled aint she??

well, shes our bunso and she's the luckiest really, when i was her age, its supposed to be kuya's turn to spoil me, but he cant and he didnt. even with the parents he didnt spoil them. im not blaming him really, because he struggled then and still does. so im actually doing it, since im most able and i can afford to do it... its also some for of payback to my parents who struggled when im college. (coz i was sick then and my medication is costly together with school.) and im glad they're happy.

with brother also, i tend to bend a lot of times with him, especially with the nephew. i once blew my whole savings just to help brother with the hospital bill. but that's okay. whats important is family and my nephew is well and great. besides i have my whole life to live and i will earn it back anyways.

i hope this christmas would be fruitful for all of us. my gift shopping will start next week. wish me luck!

i got a date with the night - yeah yeah yeahs

honestly, i dunno what to call this entry, so i just type whatever it is that came to my mind.

another change of schedule, for a week. just great right. honestly, i have no qualms on having my schedule changed so drastically, as long as my Rd is 2 days. no split off me. ayheytit.

anyways.

skype. i love you. you get me connected to my bffs wherever we are in the world.

earlier this morning, i spoke with my BFF's bars and nix. bars in the us and nix is in manila. i cried a little because i havent seen bars since she immigrated to the us 8 months ago. she's preggers and she doesnt have us girls to help her or to talk to her like we usually do. she even said, "kelan ba tayo huling nag usap ng ganito?" by ganito she meant rowdy, loud, full of jokes and finishing each others sentences... so when we did video call, it was super fun! she changed a lot since becoming pregnant. her nose is huge! her neck is darker and her tummy is bulging. i asked her to let me see her tummy because apparently her son, Unoh (bitchesso) is doing all sorts of tumbling and thumping in her belly, so there she went and put the camera on her belly and i can see her belly doing a wave. her son is so chismoso!!! and active!! God bless my godson!! yes will be a godmother again.

nix too joined our conversation, so we did a conference. we talked for 4 hours! of course both nix and i are in the phils so we could easily see each other right?? wrong. we barely see each other because of our schedule im in graveyard shift, while she's on normal mode (read: day shift). and our rest days are usually not in sync. and sometimes i spend my rest days sleeping all day. but we do text and call each other up just to say hi and a quick chitchat.

but it's nothing compares to us, all of us talk altogether. and when we talk its like we just saw each other yesterday.

i have found my GFF's. actually. i think, we found each other, since pre-k we're together. so i think this is more of a till death do us part thing.

listening to christmas carols ive DLed.

gives you hell part 2

im pretty sure that im an evil person. i laugh at your misery, i find it amusing that you feelings are constantly hurt, im basking in your defeated ego and i laugh at your pride (that you so highly stood with).

actually, i think and over and done with you EH. i dont need to feel like im ugly and im incompetent to care all the time. im good at comprising but somehow with you, its always... i dunno... im unfair?? its always been for the past month a whirlwind of PETTY arguments. like i dont text you enough. i dont call you enough, i always fell asleep when were talking, yadda yadda yadda...

alright, and i apologise for those things. but good god EH!! im working nightshift! at daylight im a fucking zombie!!! i try my very best to be alive and interested with no sleep for 13-16 hours. just so i could spend time with you. god give me a fucking break!!!

i gave you the break and space you wanted, i didnt argue with you. because you said that you needed to think were you are going and if its with me. fine. (though in my head i said screw you)

you know what i realised in that time... screw you. youre a fucking deadweight. im carrying a fucking deadweight. youve not only manage to stress me with your whines, you also manage to cause a little rupture in my sanity.

you know what happened when im in no contact with you? im more alive at work, i can finally spend some RnR with my bff pau, whom i havent seen in ages, go to the spa, go to the salon, got my nails did, and finally SLEEP with no interruption.

and now, you want back? you finally realised that you wanted me??

hell will freeze over first before ill do that.

cheers!!

gff + bff's

it was so nice to see my bff pau! i am so happy, you really cant explain it. we havent seen each other for months or years i think. hay its sooo much fun reminiscing the good ol' days. we even talked about our other bff who is now living in the us. she hasnt come yet since she moved when we we're starting freshman college, so its roughly around 7 years already?? hayss.... so hard to find great girlfriends these days, its soo good to have someone like them to be friends with. no mater the distance and the time that we've been away, when we see each other its all the same. in honor of great girlfriends below are some pictures of the lovely ladies that are taking over my life since pre-k.

im tired of everything really.

i dont want to talk abt what happened at work anymore because i want to forget about it and never visit it again. the only thing that made me happy this week is the brit-brit episode in Glee. thank you brittany s. pierce.

happy birthday to the baddest bitch in the phils! LOL

yep that is me whoring myself to the camera! LOLs!

nah. im diverting to the way i usually spend my day duirng my bday. and im not gonna ask the 5 questions also.

so start of my day, i got here from manila at 8am, first thing i did was to look at my fb page. I dont even think i deserve such love, here it is:

this is when i checked at around 2.30ish

i have like 55 wall post already! i love y'all.

nweiz, mom and i will travel to the south tomorrow so the first order of the day is to pack our stuff. this is what i packed:

i packed light because its hot in the south so i mostly packed shorts and beach stuff. and i cannot believed it all fit into that D&B overnighter.

i packed everything that i need like:

tropical baby sunblock and sunscreen

myra e facial sunscreen (which eye ♥ btw)

my fave blue bikini

pink ipod nano 4th gen

camera

bonnet

my slip ons customised shoes which i totally love. i'll post the pic later (if you want one done for you, you can go to this website wickedtj.multiply.com --> Titan's website you can check out his shoes. he's my friend and he's really nice)

and clothes!

that's it! cant weyt!

oh yeah... i almost kille dmyself for missing the emmy's check out their opening GLEE inspired number, this would be so awesome if they included Brittany to the skit!

eye love! cant stop watching it!

EYE ♥ Pantene Hair Fall Control

in furnace effective ang pantene sa herr ko.

Before my hair would only be tamed when i use Citre shine its really my go to shampoo and conditioner, however in manila i cant get citre shine easily, if i ran out of it... good luck with my hair.. i tried rejoice, clear, sunsilk, h&s, even l'oreal. nothing worked! until Pantene. I love it soo much now. I have monstrous hair fall and after 2 days my hair fall was lessened at least 75%!!! I KENT BILIBIT ASWELL!! the adverts said its atleast 14 days, but after two days,, super keri na!!! citre shine is still my go to shampoo but things might change with pantene around! I even use the Limited Edition Hair Deep Conditioner from Japan and it really REALLY works! I really really ♥ it!

LOL

i hope so.. LOLS!

		I will marry mark salling.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in tokyo in our fabulous Shack.
		We will have 14 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a pink mini cooper.
		I will spend my days as a actress, and live happily ever after.

guilty pleasure: Jersey Shore

some of my friends dont agree with me. one of them even tried to disown me. lol.

seriously one of my guilty pleasures right now. is Jersey Shore. (i know iknow iknow). nakakaloka na. yeys. I dont get to watch it on TV because of work and i work at night. so when i get home, i DL it and watch it while eating some snack. Thank God for broadband. And thank God that when i get home around 3am the world is mostly asleep and i dont share bandwidth with everyone. HA!

my def def fave from the girls are SNOOKI and JWOWW. I would've love Sammi too if she

wasnt sooo BLIND abt the RONNIE sitch you know??. Girl , we have intuition, where's yours?

From the guys, I like Vinny. He's sweet and he takes care of everyone. Actually I like all the boys except for Ron. Ron was likeable on the 1st season, then they moved to MIA, and suddenly acts like a mad dog thirsty for women.

Well, as for Angelina. well.... i dunno. its kindda irritating and fun to see you back because you clearly bring on the drama! especially when you piss people off! my favorite was when you pretend smack pauly d in the face and told him you love him and want to marry him. i was like... W.T.F. ahahaha.!!

I just love the craziness of this show.

an ass of cab

Can i just say that i hate fuckin asshole drivers?? excuse my crudeness but i really REALLY ABHOR them.

First off, yesterday the taxi cab that i rode cant hardly hear waht im saying. first sign- he asked me where to i said Tiendesitas. and i had to repeat it 4 times. I was shouting it at him already! The people on the street think im a rude ass bitch already for yellin' at a poor ol' driver. still i rode the cab as im running late already. I told the driver that we should take the underpass as its faster. Well, he did but then he turned right to ortigas! my goodness!! I asked? Why did he turned right? tiendesitas is right across the street its just a red light. didnt fuckin answer. i asked again, he just pointed towards the FUCKING TRAFFIC!!!! IM stuck in TRAFFIC FOR 20 FUCKING MINUTES!!!!! and my office is just around the corner. I would have gotten out of the stupid cab if i could but im in between two trucks that is 2 inches away from the either side of the cabr! I asked again, and told him that he could just waited for the red light to go green. he said there's a U-turn up ahead. He didnt even address why he turned right?!??? I told him, for the longest time ive been commuting to and from Eastwood to Tiendesitas and Ortigas there is no U-TURN up ahead. and he kept insisting there is. FUCK FUCK FUCK. and turns out i was right. i told him in a calm and clearly irritated manner that we could've prevented this fuck situation if you had listened to me. What do you think i am?? a new comer?!!! ( in my mind i said: fuck you. ) then we reach tiendesistas i asked him to turn left on the first cross road, and surprise surprise! he didnt. I had to YELL again to the cab driver and told him TO FUCKING TURN LEFT ON THE NEXT INTERSECTION. and good God he did. and i said stop, he didnt. and i again i said stop, as i nearly missed the office, he didnt. I opened the door, and he stopped and even scolded me for opening the fucking door while we're moving! this is the last straw, i shouted at the driver saying: "I ASKED YOU TWICE TO STOP THIS FUCKING CAB SO I COULD GET OUT YOU FUCKIN MORON AND YOU DIDNT!!! YOU DIDNT LISTEN AND DIDNT CARE!! I ASKED YOU TO TURN TO THIS AND TURN TO THAT AND YOU DIDNT AND WE ENDED UP INSIDE VALLE VERDE AND STUCK IN TRAFFIC BEFORE YOU FUCKIN LISTENED TO ME!!!" HERE'S MY FUCKIN MONEY, AND KEEP THE FUCKIN CHANGE YOU NEED TO BUY SOME QTIPS TO CLEAN YOUR AWFUL EAR!"

I know im rude, and a bitch and i dont give a fuck. I left the house an hour and 30 mins early, im 15 mins away from the office and im 30 mins late because of his stupidity.?!! fuck!! Im usually nice and polite to cab drivers, because i know driving is hard work, but that damn cab driver ruined my whole entire day!!

I believe the reason that he did that is to have a bigger fare price than normal. because my cab fare is only 50php. I give tips to the drivers, i always give 60-70php. ALWAYS. just to help out you know. but my tab rose to 90php with that stupid driver. i handed him 100php. and slammed the door to his face. BTW if your wondering what is the plate number its: PYE 869. FUCK YOU MORON!

**im sorry i used the f word more than 20x i think, its beacuse the memories and emotions came flooding back. and besides its my blog so beat it.

hello revamp - obsession and basically the rest of my week.

If you just tuned in... my blogs was not like this before. LOL. Its actually a very simple black and pink canvass with no BG pix. just plain and boring. Now, since this is a very special month, ive decided to revamp my blog a little... im so tired of uploading, creating a new bg so i decided to use a generic one from blogger. ayt?

soooo..... yeah. i said i have an obsession right now. well i really dont. I just really really love the following that they are actually borderline obsession. here they are.

can you say oh la la?? who is not excited for gossip girl season 5? the fasyon itself is fantastic! just look at B. loud patterns that dont mix and yet they look good. i am specially liking her cherry top! wonder if i could get one and wear it with black liquid leggings??? LOL. And S is the same, a fancy smanchy cocktail dress turned into casual, and i just love the blazer and brogues. if this was worn with heels... i wouldnt like it.

next is one of the sketches of Madonna's Material Girl line. GREAT. IM STUCK IN THE 3rd WORLD and CANT GET TO MACY's. I ♥♥♥ the last look.

Burt's bees. how can i not live without you??? i just realised how great this product is when i actually left it at home for a whole week. I work 5 days a week out of town inside a freezer. srsly its soooo freakin cold in our bldg. and i forgot to lug my lip balm, i bought chapstick, nivea and carmex, none of them worked. im lips are chapped, windburned and dry and rough and everything. when i got home i scoured my vanity for my lippy and once i found it, immediately applied it. works wonders!

AHLAVET.

Kalurks! my shoes will arrive on tuesday and i cant wait! i ♥♥♥ shoes. its an espadrille made to order from ebay. i srlsy need to deactivate my account in ebay. im running out of shoe space and outfits to wear my shoes in. lol! even in my flat. under my bed are tons of shoe cases with 2 or 3 shoes inside. some i cant even close. Im more than happy to share my shoes however i am the only one who has a sz 9 feet. they're more on the normal sz of 6-7. my shoes are sad they are not being worn.

and speaking of my flat. my flatmates and i are arranging a trip to coron, palawan this nov. i just hope this pushes through and i just hope i have money to go. or else. ill be really really disappointed. =(

on a more serious side. every once in a while you meet a person that you think is your friend., then all of a sudden drops you like a piece of stale gum once they meet a new set of friends? ignores you and act like they dont know you?? well what is the best thing to do?? you know what i do- dump them as well. they dont deserve to be your friend. its their lost not yours. i just hope his new set of friends wont do the things that he did to us to him.

good riddance.

torturing myself: shoe edition

Hallo! ok im pretty mad and kindda not at myself as i have not been blogginf gor a month. im always here i alway have my pc on but the procastinator in me wont allow me to blog. well, mostly because, a lot has been happening that i may post something here and drop some bombs about people that i dont wanna regret later on. sooo movin on...

yeah im torturing myself, why?? i kept looking at pics of shoes i can never (and even if i can i will not buy) afford. maygawd. im sooo dead. srsly. an example:

kermit tesoro's (skull/bones, forgive me kermit i totally forgot) shoes, like srsly. i will wear that. honestly.

this shoe reminds me of alexander mcqueen ss2010 (i still cant get over how the fashion world can exist without his genius, may God bless his soul) shoes that Lady GaGa so graciously gave justice to.

the shoes alone make me wanna sing "walk walk fashion baby, work it move that bitch crazy"

another obsession for like FOREVER:

espadrilles! this is one is special as this is sky high and by Stella McCartney.

Speaking of Stella, I like her ever since her Chloe days, i love her whole look and evolution. its Chic and Sassy and Stella! LOLS!

I actually adore sky high heels. I can never wear 2 in in heels lest i be down on my knees for i trip alot when my feet are closer to the ground. ahahaha!

i have a rule that if its heels it has to be 3 in and above. if its not, then its flats. ballerina flats. the whole round toe flats. im not one of those who like triangle toes that would seriously need a license for wearing those shoes. why, one poke of those shoes and your dead, or bleeding. whichever happens. srsly... i like round toes. i gives me a sense of playfullness. Its an endearing shoes, that says, im SEXY but not SLUTTY. LOLS (i seriously give shoes my personality sheesh..)

Ballet Flats! this whole ensemble makes my mouth water... all of the ballet flats i so love is here: Ruby Slipper Flat, Leopard Print Flats, Zebra Skin Flat, Leather Flats (a bonus as it is RED!) and Brogue-ala-Flats! and a bow to boot! if i have all of those i'll die! chos! how can you go wrong with that?!

and last but not the least:

Brogues! ever since i saw them on my dad when i was little i fell in ♥♥♥ with them. srsly. and im glad they are making a comeback. im actually saving up for a bootie brogue much like the one pictured above (but in round toe) i saw one in forever21. I know its not that expensive but i find it difficult to part with my hard-earned cash, and besides im goin on a trip soon... so i need cash... ahahahaha!

(photo: casedei booties brogue in black&gold; Fred Brogues with Studs by Christian Louboutin)

btw: guess what important event im celebrating this month.